Maura Fielder (Avery) is guest blogging today!
I was about 12 when I was diagnosed with clinical depression. It's not something that goes away easily. So naturally, my parents took me to a counselor. I went for about a month fighting and arguing. Eventually I had a very bad experience and would not go back. When I got home after this appointment, I shut off all communication with my family and friends. I felt alone and unsure of everything. I made some really poor decisions and only got more frustrated and angry at family and friends. I felt there was nobody to help. A friend reached out about going and riding horses. I didn't want to but she kind of forced me. It was amazing that she did. This is where I heard God. I heard him speak to me through a horse named Bargain. This horse, that didn't know me, showed me love and respect and that I had value to him. Through this barn, I was surrounded by other Christians and love. This all led to a better understanding of God and how he truly loves me. I am still around horses because they are my therapy and it's when I hear God the loudest. You can ask anyone in my family, those horses made a difference. I'm still working on my communication. I'm still working on building relationships. Still battling some rougher days, but I know God is with me and these horses who help me. I'm blessed to have the support I have and want to thank everyone for it.